Friday, July 30, 2010

Is His Glory and Presence Really THAT Important??

YES YES AND YES !!!!

I remember the night I got saved so clearly, well sort of clearly... It was a bit of a mess, including laughing, crying, rolling on the floor and some other stuff BUT I encountered God tangibly and no one was going to tell me otherwise. I got up off the carpet floor on the 3rd or 4th floor of a mates small apartment, having encountered Him personally and intimately for the first time of my life and everything changed.

I didn't feel the need to explain what happened, I didn't need scriptures to back up whether or not it was God and I did not feel ashamed or out of control, it was pure heavenly bliss! We use to meet at a mates home group (Grant Hansen) with a bunch of mates and most times we just spent time in His presence together laughing, prophesying, shaking, worshiping, or whatever else God was up to that night, and we were "addicted". It was only when religion got its filthy hands on me that I needed to "understand" those times or explain them theologically.

Then after a few months or so I got very mature and wanted to be a deacon and plant a church and do all those wonderful church things, but at the expense of true intimacy with Him. It was about 6/7 years of going through the system: going to all services, prayer meetings, sharing at the meetings, getting people saved, eventually going to deacons meetings, then leading a home group and finally becoming a deacon (by then I gave up on being an elder since I didn't want to wait any more years).

(PS - not blaming any church or individuals specifically - just religion that got a hold of me !! Partially my fault and partially the system I found myself in unfortunately)

Then roughly 2 years ago when Annerline Breetzke and Clive Bredenkamp came back from AUS where they had amazing encounters with God. The came back to Durbs and things changed for me again, for the good. They started to meet together at their homes outside of church (because the stuff that went down just would not be allowed at church, and that's the truth) and somehow I stumbled across their times together.

I was bit nervous at first but it didn't take me long because the Spirit in me rejoiced and instantly recognized that God was there it beautiful intimacy. I was a child in His presence again. And yes, I fell over, shook, laughed, cried (often), convulsed in strange ways BUT every night when I went home, I was more and more in love with Him. Through the weeks ahead I was more passionate to reach the lost, more passionate about getting to know Him, more sensitive to religion and man-made traditions and anything that binds up or controls. I was at peace, full of joy, had no fear or man or the future - I was simply fully secure in Him alone...


I was never again really satisfied with many things in church and started asking many questions to God, myself and others. Some thought I was rebellious and other were just challenged because of their own mediocrity. The more you encounter Him personally, the more you will be completely dissatisfied with anything that is mediocre, lacking God's presence or at very least, lacking a desire to see God manifest Himself more, and keeping people controlled and deceived. The very nature of deception means people don't know they are deceived, so feathers are bound to be ruffled.

What I have learnt in the past few months is that I don't have to twist Gods arm or try to convince Him of my righteousness or great effort to make Him respond and reveal His glory to me. I now am starting to realize more and more how God will never do ANYTHING for me EVER again, because Jesus has already done everything on the cross. I never have to ask for favour, blessing or access into His presence or any sort of provision or forgiveness. It has all been done. I just have to believe that its all mine and all past tense completed - I must just make it my reality by changing the way I think.

I want to boldly and unashamedly declare, that I have once again made His presence and His manifest glory my main priority and desire in life. Out of that, all other desires and dreams get fulfilled, and outside of that, nothing will last. I want Him to do anything and everything He needs and wants to for me to experience Him fully, powerfully and intimately like I was created to do. I want to feel the electricity of heaven shooting up and down my body again :)

I want to be like a child in your presence, again...

All I want is you...

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Things Are a Changing...




So I sort of gave up on the daily dairy entry thing a while ago for the holiday and will have to give you an action packed update of the last few weeks and the new moves on the horizon.

So I think my last entry ended somewhere close to us just finishing the trip with the Hong Kong guys. We then traveled 14 hours or so north up the east coast to Xiamen to visit friends of ours from Durban (Paul and Tori) who also teach English. During the week were there we stayed with them for about 4/5 nights and 3 nights we stayed on a small island just off Xiamen.

Xiamen is great but for some reason not really my vibe. I'm still deciding what "my vibe" is, but Xiamen wasn't really it. Tori also had her baby while we were there but we didn't get to see the little one since we left while she was still in hospital.

Then we returned to the South for a 10 day summer camp from the 13-22nd of July in Dongguan. We had an amazing time and tried to organize a fulltime position at the school but it didn't work out. They had one position but obviously we both need a job so it was a bummer (at the time). I taught 6-9 year olds and Janna had 9-12 year olds. We had around 2-3 classes/day and a double lesson from 19h00-20h30 to help them prepare for the final days performance. Was exhausting work BUT loads of fun and we realized how much we would prefer the little ones (I guess its easier said before you actually teach them every week - haha) than high school. Our high school kids either dont listen and irritate you, or they dont listen and sleep - there were some good classes, but out of the 24, most of them were a bit of a rash.

ANYWAYS - we were still clueless whether we should just go to Hong Kong and spend some time there waiting for our visa docs to get sorted out or wait in China and try look for other work for next semester (its a bit of a complicated one so wont bore you, but its been a bit of a rash with the current employers since we never got the legal documents to teach).

We were just about to go to Hong Kong to see what could happen when we got an email to meet for an interview in Foshan (around 90min's from where we were by bus) that weekend to see if we would be suitable for some openings over there. We were quite excited since the initial package was loads better than our current one but the big bonus was that we would be down south close to our mates for trips to China on weekends and to go to CCI with Rob Rufus and crew in Hong Kong on other weekends as well.

The next few days we had a few meetings with the recruiter (young guy from the UK - which was great to deal with a foreigner for a change), language school owner and some teachers at the kindergartens. It was a bit frustrating at times since the contract changed almost daily and even changed one more time about 20min's before we were to sign, so it was stretching BUT we confirmed and signed !!

So we will be closer to HongKong for weekend trips to CCI and should also be able to make the weekend trips into China as well. We get paid around 40% more each (but have to work 5 days/week now) and dont get the massive 2 month summer and winter holidays BUT the pro's far outweigh the cons so were very excited.

Janna starts Monday so we have just returned back to our apartment to fetch the rest of our things and fly back on Sunday. I officially start on September the 1st only but have some private lessons for 2 weeks or so before for some extra cash.

So thats about it for now...

We wont have internet at home (but will visit internet cafes from time to time) and most probably wont have access to Facebook, Twitter and Blogging until we visit Hong Kong on weekends, so this might be it for quite some time...

Big love from China,
Derik

Sunday, July 4, 2010

China Travels - Part 1


Day 1 - 20/06 Depart for Taiyuan from Hejin (our home city) at 8am for a 4 1/2 hour bus trip. Arrive safely and look for a place to stay for 2 nights.
Find a very average place for R100/room/night but we have ensuite bathroom which means we stay.

Day 2 - 21/06 We (Gareth, another teacher with our company from the UK is with us) leave for the medical exam centre around 09h15 to have our medical done.
We need this in order to apply for our Z-visa (work visa) and is the only reason we came to Taiyuan (the capital of our province, Shanxi).
The medical was harmless and Gareth leaves straight afterwards for his further travels. I Have a very average cup of Brazilian coffee for R31! One ride at the local
fun fare wasn't all that bad, but then again, I am hardcore (cant wait for Hong Kong Disneyland!!)

Day 3 - 22/06 Decide to upgrade to a hotel down the road. Super kif room (tripple the price but it was worth it). Met a Spanish architect who happened to be on our same flight to Shenzhen the next morning. Missed the SA vs FRANCE game but fluked the first goal on TV in our room (live).

Day 4 - 23/06 Checked out at 6am and left for the airport for our 8am flight. Got ripped off by the taxi driver. Chatted to the Spanish architect (Jorge) for a while and nearly missed the flight. Arrived at the hostel in Shenzhen around 12pm (ITS FREAKIN HOT HERE!!) and waiting for our room. Went to a theme park around the corner the afternoon which was good fun. Found a Star Bucks (stoked!) by accident while looking for a dinner spot later in the evening.

Day 5 - 24/06: Had a good nights rest. Met a Chinese guy at the hostel looking for work in Shenzhen (Eric) who we hanged with quite a bit today. Helped us buy our tickets to Xiamen for Monday (got the soft sleeper seats STOKED). Had a late lunch and met Eric again later for our 2nd round of Star Bucks

Day 6 - 25/06: Checked out of the hostel and met the Hong Kong crew and left for the weekend trip to Meizhou and 3 Rivers. Left Shenzhen around 14h30 with a group of 22 (the rest of the 22 came later that night) for a 6 hour drive which turned into 8 hours after an accident on the way (not by us). Arrived around 10pm and still had dinner with some locals. Sleep time quite late after watching some World Cup!

Day 7 - 26/06: Just so so rad to hang with brothers again - and pumoed up brothers too. Our first stop in the a.m is at a church nicknamed "Acts Church" because of all the radical stuff that goes down there. Quite a timid time since there has been a bit of a stair among the locals about the "charismatic" vibe and some material that has been circulated causing some resistance. Ryan Aitkin (sporting a recent tattoo on the upper/inner right arm) preached a ripper! Off to another church (quite a bit bigger than te previous one) and Candice preached and we prayed for healing etc afterwards. Bunch of healings but no salvations as the rain on the day caused only the locals to pullin.
Then lunch and end the Saturday with another meeting which was just as rad and leaves me exhausted but spiritually buzzing with the reality of the Kingdom in China and finally being part of it.

Day 8 - 27/06: The final day and we only have one meeting at a church Esther (the living legend Chinese lady) built and where Candice stayed with a mate for a few months a while ago. Amazing place and amazing meeting. 10 or so salvations and bunch of healings afterwards as well. The have some lunch and end with a meeting at a school that wants us to pullin for ongoing English teaching/training and gospel preaching combo relationship vibes. Blew my mind sitting in a meeting where a principal confesses his faith and welcomes us to teach in the morning and preach the gospel and heal the sick etc in the afternoons IN CHINA !!! WHAT THE STUFF !!!!

Loving these Hong Kong guys - fully free, free thinkers and not tied up in theolical insignificances (probably not a real word). Love Jesus passionately, believe 100% gospel, 100% Kingdom and know exactly who they are and what they're capable of in Christ. No man made traditions, and religious webs or fear of anything. Flippin love these guys. Still amazes me that anyone who loves Jesus and has His spirit can have anything against Rob and the Hong Kong guys, absolutely ridiculous I tell you.

Day 9 - 28/06: Worst day ever. Consists of getting ready for train trip, checking out, having lunch, having StarBucks (obviously), heading to main train station (via local tubes), train being delayed and therefore waiting in 2 other long queues to exchange tickets and go back home with ALL our luggage etc etc etc. AND it was FREAKIN HOT AGAIN. So not a great day, but we made it back to the hostel again to start the process over the following day.

Day 10 - 29/06: Better today since we actually made our train to Guangzhou. Waited at the station a few short hours and departed for Xiamen from Guangzhou around 19h00 for a 13 hour-odd trip. We paid RMB380 odd each for soft sleeper compartments. Consists of 4 beds in a closed off compartment and a relatively good bed (closed off to other compartments). WAY worth the extra bucks!! (If you want to save money you can go for a hard seat, soft seat or hard bed option, but not recommended for anything over a few hours)

Day 11 - 30/06: Arrived in Xiamen around 09h00 and got ripped off by a private taxi driver to get to the ferry (he reckoned 20 min’s away, only turned out to be 12, I timed it) A new town will often mean getting ripped off when they see the bags and foreign faces, so you learn quickly. Took the ferry to Paul and Tori’s section of Xiamen, and then a bus to their apartment. By the way, FREAKIN HOT IN SOUTERN CHINA!!!

Day 12 - 31/06: Paul and Tori have been hosting us magnificently (writing this in the past tense) and they are doing well. Tori is FULLY pregnant and they are in the process of confirming the date for the C-section operation at the hospital. They have aircon (bless their souls).

Day 13 – 01-03/07: Paul has coffee (roasts and grinds his own coffee, legend) and wifi setup with streaming TV so I could follow the quarter finals of the Football, stoked! GAAN HOLLAND GAAN!! Days spent mostly just relaxing indoors with aircon, movies, iPod (Chinese “studies”) etc. Our first real proper break to relax for a few days.

Day 14 - 04/07: Paul and Tori left today for the hospital and we have the place to ourselves until Tuesday the 6th. Used their portable splash pool on their veranda today (hope you guys don’t mind). Jan and I also seriously keen to study UNISA (teaching degrees) so were looking into the options. Not easy from China, but easier from Hong Kong, so we will see how the next few weeks and months unfold, EXCITING TIMES !!